New directions.
Some day if I walked out of the path, this will serve as a painful reminder to push me on.
This is going to be a lengthy post because I want that moment to be imprinted as a vivid memory.
During the altar call on Saturday’s church conference, Vicki Simpsons from C3 Oxford Falls prophesy over me.
It was the first altar call that I got prayed for first and thru the microphone.
“I see you being a preacher. You will preach to many. You will preach in the mission fields. You will preach in many places. Your preaching will influence people.”
Then together with Dr Rob Carmen from USA, they laid hands on me and down to the ground I went.
Dr Rob probably had that same thing. He walked just right over before Vicki called him.
When I was on the ground, God repeated:”Don’t fear” so many times and to stop allowing my disadvantages to discourage me.
I had so many ups & downs in my Christian walk.
I have seen my flaws. They are so bad. I have so many evil thoughts, even up to this point. I always felt so inadequate - I am not outspoken, I bail on church sometimes when I get so busy, I was at all time low before I came, I am so bitchy, my faith leaks so often and the list just goes on.
After so many years, I had my personal revelation of what we often say “God uses the ordinary to do extraordinary things.”
While Vicki was prophesying, my initial reaction was “Are you sure God, you are not kidding me right?”.
I am not of the standards of a pastoral leader yet my destiny was to preach.
I always have the idea that I am going to do background job all my life. I was contented just to see myself not being the missing link. I don’t need the limelight, just an occasion appreciation would be sufficient.
Never in my wildest dream would I imagine myself as a preacher girl. Never.
Just a little sidetrack, I am very grateful to everyone from C3 indooroopilly who was there. Thank you for all the encouragement. Thank you for being so excited for me.
I was reminded of how I first started out in fashion ministry, feeling so inadequate for my lack of skills & creativity. It took me months to break my own mentality and to move on to do so much stuffs in the ministry.
This felt the same. But it’s not going to be.
I am not going to allow my own insecurities to destroy my destiny.
It’s not going to be easy, but I will allow the Potter to mould me.
I am the rocket that is launched. I have went slow, now is the time to accelerate.
God plans are always higher.
