If You would like to tell me what to do. I would put everything behind if You tell me to stay. Or I would pack everything up if You want me to leave.
I would love to know Your plans (:
Haven’t been really on tumblr ever since I started uni last year.
Just some random post to help me remember some stuffs in ten years time.
I mean, I dont want to look back in ten years to realise that I remember nothing about this season of my life.
So life have been pretty good, with A LOT of ups & downs (: and my never ending activities.
There were days that I just felt like I’m at the top of the world.
Others, I just felt like I would rather die.
I thank God for God Himself.
The past few months have been pretty torturous emotionally.
It started with nights I cried myself to bed, then my heart ache so much that I couldnt cry neither could I sleep. But I’m so glad that God showed up and spoke in those tears and in that silence. So assured that even if the whole world gave up on me, God wouldn’t.
I have sorted myself out a little bit more this summer.
I figured my ideal man out, and spotted one in the midst of my friends. Or maybe I felt comfortable and thought that’s my ideal man. This has got me anxious to know if this was a God’s plan or we are not mean to be. Well, I have got almost two years to find out. I mean I could have confess & all, but it’s not going to be fair to him or neither being so far apart during the honeymoon period is going to help build a strong lasting relationship.
I have too figured out what I wanna do in future.
I’m working very hard on it. Dreams will only stay dreams if we don’t work hard for it. I rather pay with tears & sweat now than to regret forever that I did not put in any effort. And how difficult can it be to force myself to do physical trng? I’m not even dreaming to do medical.
Till here XXXX
I wish I was brave enough.
I hate this feeling.
I miss you, my ideal man.
Your silence is always filled with love because your language of love is not words of affirmation but quality time & touch.
I got my driver’s today!
After one year inclusive of the 5 mths I was in aussie.
Once in a while when someone tells us that they will be our listening ears, we will be so grateful.
We think of ways to pour our hearts in hope for some comfort.
But that doesnt happen in the end. We didnt have enough, courage to utter anything.
Our life goes on. We remain unhappy.
We let time heal our wounds. We find strength in time.
And we tell ourselves, all for a better future.
